Don't be too hard on yourself Ron.

As beginner writers we're bound to achieve failure before we ever achieve success, and it truly is part of the process.

Trust me being this hard on yourself does no good to you or your writing, it only makes you sadder, and that is something you don't deserve.

And If we’re similar in any way, you remember to look after your skin, your appearance, and your fitness. But often forget to even think about the organ, which lets you think in the first place.

If you're interested:

https://medium.com/write-a-catalyst/i-built-a-braincare-routine-my-life-changed-immediately-5493b6881554